You Don't Know What You've Got 'Til It's Gone

Hi guys,

Yes I know that the title for this post is a total cliche but I don't care because there really isn't any other way I could describe this. So you guys know that I'm in my freshman year of college. To be more specific, the fall semester of my freshman year is coming to a close and that's causing me to reflect a little bit about my past.

So everyone knows that when you go to college, you have to pretty much make new friends. I'm lucky in that I came to school with some of my friends from high school but because I'm in the honors college, I'm forced to technically make a new set of friends because I live and learn with the honors kids more than my old friends. I would love for these two groups to come together ("come together, right now, over me") but I never truly made a connection with the people in the honors college. I know that it's partly my fault for hanging out with my old friends more than the new ones but the things I say with the honors college kids don't get the same amount of appreciation or for that matter acknowledgement. It also doesn't help that I was introduced to these people by my roommate and so it feels like they think I'm tagging along because I  don't have any other friends. When I'm with my old friends I feel like I can be as weird, nerdy, or crazy as I want to be and they will laugh and join in. If I were to do that with the honors college kids, I would feel like they are judging me. 

Now don't get me wrong, I have become close to a handful of people here in the honors college, but things still aren't the same. And I guess the main reason is because I've only known them for 4 months when I'm comparing them to friends I've known for at least 4 years. Now that sentence contains my next biggest flaw, I'm comparing friends. When it comes down to it, everyone is different (cliche and cheesy, I know) and no one can truly replace the connections and inside jokes I've made with my friends from high school. But as a person who's still trying to adjust to the ways of life in college, it's almost human nature to try and replace what has worked for you for so long. I mean, change is awesome and greatly needed at times, but if you're feeling nostalgic and a little homesick, wouldn't you try to make things like they were?

I guess in conclusion, I just want to say that I never really realized how much I would miss my friends. The main reason for that is because I figured that if I'm going to a school that a lot of my friends are going to also then I wouldn't really get the chance to miss them. But the 4 people with me in college can't even begin to make up for the other 15-20 people that made up my high school group.

Sorry for the depressing post, guys. Comment below if you're going through or have gone through something similar. What did you try to do to fix it?

Bye and DFTBA!